Jun 13 2025

Hello, love.

So, I'm home now. I've been in the hospital. I had emergency surgery on Monday (after a fiasco that literally should have killed me), then I was in the ICU for a couple of days. I'm back home, tired, very sore, and wishing I could tell you all about how my stubbornness nearly killed me for reals. I hope to tell you one day about my stupidity, and the miraculous wonders of our bodies. How mine kept me alive is nothing short of incredible. When I'm better I really need to rethink what I pump into this bad boy. She's a good ol' trolley. And to be fair to me, it wasn't exactly stupidity, but after you know what was going on, makes you slap your forehead. I don't know how I was upright, let alone working, shopping, doing yardwork... I think my grandma protected me. I could smell perfume yesterday in my room. I'm pretty sure she was checking on me. But I'm certain she is why I'm alive. And I fought for you, too. Whenever I had to force myself to sit up, or get another shot in the stomach, anything unpleasant or painful, I thought of you. "Do it for Michael", "Do it so you can know him".

In the hospital, I read a lot about natal charts, moon lines, past life karmic connections, all sorts of things. It's all pretty great. I have a folder to share with you one day.

My youngest and I watch Ginny and Georgia, and yesterday's episode had me sobbing. It made me think of you. If you haven't seen it, you must. It's wonderful. But anyway, without spoilers, Georgia is abandoned by everyone in her life, and all I could think about was you. I wanted to climb into my tv and hold her hand, bring her wine, let her not be so alone. It physically hurt that I couldn't. And I know it's not real!! Being this much of a feeler is exhausting. I know you get it. Maybe not so much with fictional characters, but it said so much to me just about humanity, and people's inclination to desert those they are supposed to love and support. I just don't understand our world, Michael. Not at all. I wish so much I could have been there for you, too. I would have. Any time of the day, for any or no reason. That's how the universe built me.

I'm going to keep this brief, as I want to go lay down now.

But I'm ok, I love you bunches, and we'll talk soon.

All my heart,

Alicia